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Right now it's about half past midnight, and I'm tired. No not sleepy tired like most normal people would be, but mentally tired. I've been lagging behind on school for so long now and I'm tired. Last week I missed two deadlines I ddin't even know I had. for the first one I just submitted the last assignment for it and am just going to tell them I submitted the wrong one. For the second one I just didn't have a group to submit it with, you may ask why didn't I just tell the professor I didn't have a group. That's a great question, why didn't I? Because to tell you the truth, I'm an idiot, my most said phrase is "I'm not a smart man". I just seem to have a brain that wants to sabotage me no matter what. Yes, I know I am my brain so the responsibility is still on me. I'm just really overhwelmed. I'm tired, I just want to be a resposible person like everyone else. I'm struggling to be a basic functioning person. I know I sound all doom and gloom but I know it's all going to work out in the end, I'm just in the middle stage where things are difficult and have yet to work out. I just needed to get some thoughts and feelings out. If you're curious as to what I'm stressing over. I'm a librarian student, the two assignments I've been given is creating a database and then pulling requests from that database using SQL, and the second one is all about metadata. Yeah, librarians learn more than just hushing people and stacking books. Sometimes I wish I could just be that book stacker, but I gotta keep on keeping on so I ball.
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